"Look up little girl."

I have been doing my “inner child” exercise multiple times a week nowadays. It’s when I picture myself as a child and I just talk to myself. Telepathically, in this case. I think about that little girl at the age 4 because it was such a good year and all. Chuy was born that year and Prince made Purple Rain.

I was a spunky little girl. I had a lot of attitude. I threw a lot of tantrums as my Mama told me even as a baby. Well… the world I was born into was already chaos so there’s that.

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I talk to the little ol me that had pig tails and her fancy pants pajamas. Those fancy pants pajamas made me feel like a princess. The nice feel to them and how I felt like royalty when I wore them til it couldn’t fit any more. 1984 was a good year. I played Flower girl for two weddings even with my stubbornness. My other cousins weren’t here yet and some weren’t born yet so it was slim pickins in my family back in the day. hahahaha. Now there is too many of us. Anyways, so I think about the 1984 me and I talk to myself.

“You will get through this one,” I tell myself.

Or “Things are going to be ok.”

Sometimes I go and have a conversation with myself. No arguments. I see the little girl in me looking at the older me, present day me… funny. Because it is funny. I am talking to my old self telepathically.

Because you need to give yourself a talking to nowadays and talking to my younger self is a whole lot easier to talking to myself to what is going on present day.

In high school, teachers used to make me write letters to myself. I still have some of them. This exercise is more instant and self-gratifying. I am less depressed when I do this. It is a lot easier to do it high because I am less “restricted” as to what I even tell myself.

I am not a doctor, not even close to being certified in any mental health training so take this with a grain of salt. Maybe this can help someone.